a poem from 2009

I was upset when I wrote this, very upset really. This was written in 2009.


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One is Running Away
One is Pretending Each Day


You had to go, this I know.
But as you're leaving once again, Did you know my heart is breaking?
Bills they must be paid it's true, so you'll go.
Pulling out of the driveway once again, leaving...



You'll be gone for at least three weeks or more.
It'll just be for a year, you say.
But I know that is not true, even as you go out the door.
With every passing day, every passing week, I know your heart is with the highway.



When you are home, you are restless and wish to roam.
No longer is your heart with me when you are home.


Longing for the highway, you make an excuse...
An excuse to leave a little earlier, never knowing I have discovered your ruse...



In silence I watch you pull away.
Every day you are gone, I know that your heart has left for the highway.



One day, I know you'll forever go.
How soon, how can I know?



Perhaps, I should leave.
But no, for a little longer I'll make believe...



You say you love me.
You say this is how it must be.



But I know you are not truthful. Your eyes they lie.
You say you must drive for just this year, then you'll look for a new "tie".



But I know that it isn't true.
When you call your words leave a clue.



Your heart to the road has become glued.
I know it's true.



I can see it in your eyes.
When you say "I'll stay" your eyes give away your lie...


I wish you well.
You know your secrets I won't tell.



Only you and I know the reason that you must go.
It is because you are searching for your mind, this I know.



Heartache so great, heartbreak so deep.
Having lost so much in this life, your heart does weep.



Driving takes away your misery.
Driving keeps you away from painful memories.



I know you must go.
To pay the bills, you must go, I know.



But seriously this is not a good lie.
Your paycheck, it is not enough to survive.



You must go.
This I know.



But it isn't to pay the bills.
You're leaving once again trying to leave behind the painful chills.



Painful memories of that day.
That I wish would go away.



But we know it won't, but you must go.
For you have lost your mind, I know.



I must stay.
At least for this day.



But for how long who can tell.
Soon my heart may mend, a last ring be heard, from some distant bell.



But as your leaving, yet once again. Do you know I need someone to hold me tight.
Staying alone, it is fine for a day or so. But not every night.



I love you, and you know it's true.
But as you leave yet once again, you're breaking my heart right in two.



I'm not complaining, I know it's no use. 
And I'll never reveal your ruse.



But you know, I can see it in your eyes.
You have never been able to hide from me a lie.



You may not hear my words, you may not understand.
Watching you leave once again, I know you're driving on quicksand.



Leaving me behind, you must go.
To pay the bills, I know.



But something you should know.
Something you should know, before you go...



I really do love you.
Never have I been untrue.



There is something else, but I know you must go.
So I'll just close the door, soon you'll know.



Leaving behind a broken heart it is not wise.
Taking a traveling job, staying away, it is no disguise.



You must go.
Yes, I know.



I won't keep you. I'll let you be.
I have seen your eyes, have you looked at me?



I'll not tell you a lie.
I'll not hide from you what's behind my eyes'.



All you need to do is turn around one last time.
This heart of mine it will be mended in rhyme.



Keep walking, but as you open the door, there is something you should know.
Even as you must go...



It is not wise to leave a broken heart.
Rushing to find your lost mind, we'll again depart.


You must go.
This I know.



But is it really wise to leave someone who needs you tonight.
Have you ever considered, that I may need someone to hold me, to still my fright.



Walk away if you must, I know you must go.
Bills to pay. I know.



You can't talk and drive.
But neither can you talk when you are home right by my side.



I have seen your eyes.
I'll look away. So you'll not know that I have seen your lies.



It is not me you love, no longer is your heart here at home.
Your home is the highway's that you roam...



Good bye, my friend.
This is not the end.



One day soon you'll stop by.
Perhaps, one day you'll see that my heart for you no longer cries.



Your last goodbye, you said you had to hurry, you said you must go.
The bills, you said, must be paid. But I needed you, did you not know?



I loved you, I still love you. But no longer for you does my heart cry.
In your eyes I have seen one too many lies.



Now perhaps, I should leave. I must go.
Bills to pay you know.


My words, they hide my tears, hide my lies.


No, I don't mind, it'll only be a year.
Be safe, hurry home my dear...



Driving away, you'll never know.
Words are cheap, and you must go.



Making believe, we'll walk away.
Everything is fine, you'll see one day...



Now please go away.
Don't turn around, for your love is calling to you... the highway.



Please don't look into my eyes.
For if you do, you may find I too, have learned to lie.



Now my friend, this will be the end.
The heart can break, the heart can mend.



But there is something you should know.
One day, one day soon, I too will have to go...